crazy/evil/chocoholic/crazy-girl

On the first day of advent...

2007-12-01T12:28:00.000Z

[y'all know the damn tune]

... my boyfriend wakes up to...

one shitty headace

a bin full of vomit

and the dicovery of burgulary.....

Urrgh :(

the Wii is gone; along with the remotes, all the Wii games; but not the gamecube ones that they were with; and his iPod with the iPod speaker thingies....

oh joys...

buying for christmas for him has suddenly become alot harder (it was gonna be games ...)

so joy and all that.

redo

2007-08-14T20:58:00.000+01:00

wanted to see if its changed at all... (onld one here)

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	33%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	40%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Religious	\|\|\|\|	16%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|	24%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Indie	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%

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Stability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

trait snapshot:
craves attention, messy, open, rash, irritable, likes large parties, low self control, weird, fragile, does not like to be alone, emotionally sensitive, worrying, depressed, heart over mind, does not respect authority, dependent, not rule conscious, not good at saving money, more interested in relationships than intellectual pursuits, likes to fit in, very social, frequently second guesses self, phobic, suspicious, not careful, outgoing, vain, compassionate, aggressive, likes to make fun, hates to lose

Bloooood

2007-08-01T17:42:00.000+01:00

well yesterday i gave blood :)

erm, not much else to say about it; i thought i'd give it a go :)

feels good ;)

if you wanna know of you can or not clicky >>> here <<<

2007-03-28T08:25:00.000+01:00

damn teeth :(

have gotta abcessin my lower right second pre-molar :(

was gonna wait till i have an appointment in oxford on the 10th; but pain is too much; gotta find a dentist here...

[this is more of a reminder to myself]

gaar

livin' off painkillers and bonjella again...

Still Alive

2007-03-26T01:48:00.000+01:00

Hey :)

i thought i'd check in;

i'm still here, and im better :)

thanks for caring, and still checking; i still watch you all, sorry i dont have much to say though..

erm; i would give an update to my life, except that theres not much to say...

i have a new boyfriend; 2 weeks today now, its going good so far, but in fear of jinxing it; i wont say much more... (for now ;) )

umm yea; i guess i still need to update properly, and yes, the japan post is still on the cards (getting there...)

laters all

and thanks for caring, again :)

2006-12-12T22:24:00.000Z

.

what is it with me and relationships?

why is I'm so scared when I'm alone; I cant stand to be alone; I need to be with someone to be able to function on even a basic level

but once I'm in a relationship it flips the eithier way; I'll fight and fight and fight to get out; I find little wrongdoing in everything around me; I'll pick and push and push and push until the other, the person with me can no longer be with me

and I wont have it another way because I cant end a relation ship, even if I'm pushing so hard to get out; I can't get myself there because inside; I'm still so scarred of being alone that I drive myself back in to a relationship; where I may not want to be in.

I put up with so much just to not be alone, but then I give so much pain and crap out, its suprising I'm not alone; I push so hard and break so much, and yet I still need to be inside; to have that reassurance that I'm not alone.

why cant I function in a relationship?
why cant I function outside of a relationship?

why can't I just function?

I think I need help,

but I cant do this alone;
but I have to do it alone.

I need help

I need help to be alone

I need help to be safe when I'm alone

because at the moment;

I'm not.

these things are way too much fun to fuck around with..

2006-11-16T23:47:00.000Z

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Gwen Sallabank
Birthday:	11 March '86
Birthplace:	Oxford
Current Location:	Swansea, halfway off a chair
Eye Color:	Blue/ Grey/ Green with bits of brown
Hair Color:	Golden "strawberry blonde" / Turquoise
Height:	average about 5'9" i think :S
Right Handed or Left Handed:	ambidextrous, but tend to use right
Your Heritage:	Scandanavian on one side, idiots the other
The Shoes You Wore Today:	shoes? normally my Vans
Your Weakness:	others
Your Fears:	being alone
Your Perfect Pizza:	cheesey cheese cheese with double cheese and stuffed crust :D
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Pass course, make some money to repay overdraft
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	apparently "aww" and hugs / maniac grin smilie
Thoughts First Waking Up:	aww shit ive overslept again
Your Best Physical Feature:	eyes /hair
Your Bedtime:	your morning
Your Most Missed Memory:	i dont remmeber it. possiblty happiness
Pepsi or Coke:	Dr Pepper!
MacDonalds or Burger King:	YO sushi!
Single or Group Dates:	prunes
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	neither. iced chocolate ^^
Chocolate or Vanilla:	chocolate as it contains Vanilla anyway
Cappuccino or Coffee:	thayre both coffee! duh.
Do you Smoke:	tried and burnt my fingers. so no.
Do you Swear:	all the fucking time
Do you Sing:	not at an audiable frequency
Do you Shower Daily:	every-otherdaily
Have you Been in Love:	once
Do you want to go to College:	im in Uni
Do you want to get Married:	dont know. if im gay then yes, just to piss ya off.
Do you belive in yourself:	no
Do you get Motion Sickness:	not usually. i get vibration sickness from engines
Do you think you are Attractive:	vaugly
Are you a Health Freak:	im freaky, does that count?
Do you get along with your Parents:	not really. its tense at best.
Do you like Thunderstorms:	almost as much as thundercats
Do you play an Instrument:	only if you want it broken
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	*only a little* =3**
In the past month have you Smoked:	no, ive been smoked at tho. (mite as well)
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	i sat on my neurophen
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	i walk through a shoppeing centre everyday
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	sadly no
In the past month have you been on Stage:	i fell of a stage
In the past month have you been Dumped:	more rejected than dumped
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	not yet
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	nothing tangible
Ever been Drunk:	obviously
Ever been called a Tease:	always
Ever been Beaten up:	many a time
Ever Shoplifted:	yup
How do you want to Die:	quickly while making maximum mess :P
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	grown up
What country would you most like to Visit:	Japan again
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	the colour of magic
Favourite Hair Color:	whatever suits
Short or Long Hair:	long on guys, short on girls
Height:	a lil taller than i
Weight:	not bothered
Best Clothing Style:	clothes? who needs those? ;)
Number of Drugs I have taken:	whatevers pescribed to me
Number of CDs I own:	well most of them officially still belong to HMV....
Number of Piercings:	one, for now
Number of Tattoos:	none, to be rectified soon
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	countless actions, words and decisions
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

2006-11-08T03:39:00.000Z

Can't say i agree with all of the results on this one, but hey, it is 3 am...

Extraversion

Extraversion is marked by pronounced engagement with the external world. Extraverts enjoy being with people, are full of energy, and often experience positive emotions. They tend to be enthusiastic, action-oriented, individuals who are likely to say "Yes!" or "Let's go!" to opportunities for excitement. In groups they like to talk, assert themselves, and draw attention to themselves.

Introverts lack the exuberance, energy, and activity levels of extraverts. They tend to be quiet, low-key, deliberate, and disengaged from the social world. Their lack of social involvement should not be interpreted as shyness or depression; the introvert simply needs less stimulation than an extravert and prefers to be alone. The independence and reserve of the introvert is sometimes mistaken as unfriendliness or arrogance. In reality, an introvert who scores high on the agreeableness dimension will not seek others out but will be quite pleasant when approached.

Domain/Facet........... Score

EXTRAVERSION...............37

..Friendliness.............50

..Gregariousness...........51

..Assertiveness............41

..Activity Level...........22

..Excitement-Seeking.......49

..Cheerfulness.............17

Your score on Extraversion is average, indicating you are neither a subdued loner nor a jovial chatterbox. You enjoy time with others but also time alone.

Extraversion Facets

Friendliness. Friendly people genuinely like other people and openly demonstrate positive feelings toward others. They make friends quickly and it is easy for them to form close, intimate relationships. Low scorers on Friendliness are not necessarily cold and hostile, but they do not reach out to others and are perceived as distant and reserved. Your level of friendliness is average.
Gregariousness. Gregarious people find the company of others pleasantly stimulating and rewarding. They enjoy the excitement of crowds. Low scorers tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. They do not necessarily dislike being with people sometimes, but their need for privacy and time to themselves is much greater than for individuals who score high on this scale. Your level of gregariousness is average.
Assertiveness. High scorers Assertiveness like to speak out, take charge, and direct the activities of others. They tend to be leaders in groups. Low scorers tend not to talk much and let others control the activities of groups. Your level of assertiveness is average.
Activity Level. Active individuals lead fast-paced, busy lives. They move about quickly, energetically, and vigorously, and they are involved in many activities. People who score low on this scale follow a slower and more leisurely, relaxed pace. Your activity level is low.
Excitement-Seeking. High scorers on this scale are easily bored without high levels of stimulation. They love bright lights and hustle and bustle. They are likely to take risks and seek thrills. Low scorers are overwhelmed by noise and commotion and are adverse to thrill-seeking. Your level of excitement-seeking is average.
Cheerfulness. This scale measures positive mood and feelings, not negative emotions (which are a part of the Neuroticism domain). Persons who score high on this scale typically experience a range of positive feelings, including happiness, enthusiasm, optimism, and joy. Low scorers are not as prone to such energetic, high spirits. Your level of positive emotions is low.

Agreeableness

Agreeableness reflects individual differences in concern with cooperation and social harmony. Agreeable individuals value getting along with others. They are therefore considerate, friendly, generous, helpful, and willing to compromise their interests with others'. Agreeable people also have an optimistic view of human nature. They believe people are basically honest, decent, and trustworthy.

Disagreeable individuals place self-interest above getting along with others. They are generally unconcerned with others' well-being, and therefore are unlikely to extend themselves for other people. Sometimes their skepticism about others' motives causes them to be suspicious, unfriendly, and uncooperative.

Agreeableness is obviously advantageous for attaining and maintaining popularity. Agreeable people are better liked than disagreeable people. On the other hand, agreeableness is not useful in situations that require tough or absolute objective decisions. Disagreeable people can make excellent scientists, critics, or soldiers.

Domain/Facet........... Score

AGREEABLENESS..............31

..Trust....................11

..Morality.................15

..Altruism.................41

..Cooperation..............52

..Modesty..................70

..Sympathy.................32

Your score on Agreeableness is low, indicating less concern with others' needs Than with your own. People see you as tough, critical, and uncompromising.

Agreeableness Facets

Trust. A person with high trust assumes that most people are fair, honest, and have good intentions. Persons low in trust see others as selfish, devious, and potentially dangerous. Your level of trust is low.
Morality. High scorers on this scale see no need for pretense or manipulation when dealing with others and are therefore candid, frank, and sincere. Low scorers believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. People find it relatively easy to relate to the straightforward high-scorers on this scale. They generally find it more difficult to relate to the unstraightforward low-scorers on this scale. It should be made clear that low scorers are not unprincipled or immoral; they are simply more guarded and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth. Your level of morality is low.
Altruism. Altruistic people find helping other people genuinely rewarding. Consequently, they are generally willing to assist those who are in need. Altruistic people find that doing things for others is a form of self-fulfillment rather than self-sacrifice. Low scorers on this scale do not particularly like helping those in need. Requests for help feel like an imposition rather than an opportunity for self-fulfillment. Your level of altruism is average.
Cooperation. Individuals who score high on this scale dislike confrontations. They are perfectly willing to compromise or to deny their own needs in order to get along with others. Those who score low on this scale are more likely to intimidate others to get their way. Your level of compliance is average.
Modesty. High scorers on this scale do not like to claim that they are better than other people. In some cases this attitude may derive from low self-confidence or self-esteem. Nonetheless, some people with high self-esteem find immodesty unseemly. Those who are willing to describe themselves as superior tend to be seen as disagreeably arrogant by other people. Your level of modesty is high.
Sympathy. People who score high on this scale are tenderhearted and compassionate. They feel the pain of others vicariously and are easily moved to pity. Low scorers are not affected strongly by human suffering. They pride themselves on making objective judgments based on reason. They are more concerned with truth and impartial justice than with mercy. Your level of tender-mindedness is low.

Conscientiousness

Conscientiousness concerns the way in which we control, regulate, and direct our impulses. Impulses are not inherently bad; occasionally time constraints require a snap decision, and acting on our first impulse can be an effective response. Also, in times of play rather than work, acting spontaneously and impulsively can be fun. Impulsive individuals can be seen by others as colorful, fun-to-be-with, and zany.

Nonetheless, acting on impulse can lead to trouble in a number of ways. Some impulses are antisocial. Uncontrolled antisocial acts not only harm other members of society, but also can result in retribution toward the perpetrator of such impulsive acts. Another problem with impulsive acts is that they often produce immediate rewards but undesirable, long-term consequences. Examples include excessive socializing that leads to being fired from one's job, hurling an insult that causes the breakup of an important relationship, or using pleasure-inducing drugs that eventually destroy one's health.

Impulsive behavior, even when not seriously destructive, diminishes a person's effectiveness in significant ways. Acting impulsively disallows contemplating alternative courses of action, some of which would have been wiser than the impulsive choice. Impulsivity also sidetracks people during projects that require organized sequences of steps or stages. Accomplishments of an impulsive person are therefore small, scattered, and inconsistent.

A hallmark of intelligence, what potentially separates human beings from earlier life forms, is the ability to think about future consequences before acting on an impulse. Intelligent activity involves contemplation of long-range goals, organizing and planning routes to these goals, and persisting toward one's goals in the face of short-lived impulses to the contrary. The idea that intelligence involves impulse control is nicely captured by the term prudence, an alternative label for the Conscientiousness domain. Prudent means both wise and cautious. Persons who score high on the Conscientiousness scale are, in fact, perceived by others as intelligent.

The benefits of high conscientiousness are obvious. Conscientious individuals avoid trouble and achieve high levels of success through purposeful planning and persistence. They are also positively regarded by others as intelligent and reliable. On the negative side, they can be compulsive perfectionists and workaholics. Furthermore, extremely conscientious individuals might be regarded as stuffy and boring. Unconscientious people may be criticized for their unreliability, lack of ambition, and failure to stay within the lines, but they will experience many short-lived pleasures and they will never be called stuffy.

Domain/Facet........... Score

CONSCIENTIOUSNESS..........9

..Self-Efficacy............13

..Orderliness..............26

..Dutifulness..............9

..Achievement-Striving.....24

..Self-Discipline..........17

..Cautiousness.............18

Your score on Conscientiousness is low, indicating you like to live for the moment and do what feels good now. Your work tends to be careless and disorganized.

Conscientiousness Facets

Self-Efficacy. Self-Efficacy describes confidence in one's ability to accomplish things. High scorers believe they have the intelligence (common sense), drive, and self-control necessary for achieving success. Low scorers do not feel effective, and may have a sense that they are not in control of their lives. Your level of self-efficacy is low.
Orderliness. Persons with high scores on orderliness are well-organized. They like to live according to routines and schedules. They keep lists and make plans. Low scorers tend to be disorganized and scattered. Your level of orderliness is low.
Dutifulness. This scale reflects the strength of a person's sense of duty and obligation. Those who score high on this scale have a strong sense of moral obligation. Low scorers find contracts, rules, and regulations overly confining. They are likely to be seen as unreliable or even irresponsible. Your level of dutifulness is low.
Achievement-Striving. Individuals who score high on this scale strive hard to achieve excellence. Their drive to be recognized as successful keeps them on track toward their lofty goals. They often have a strong sense of direction in life, but extremely high scores may be too single-minded and obsessed with their work. Low scorers are content to get by with a minimal amount of work, and might be seen by others as lazy. Your level of achievement striving is low.
Self-Discipline. Self-discipline-what many people call will-power-refers to the ability to persist at difficult or unpleasant tasks until they are completed. People who possess high self-discipline are able to overcome reluctance to begin tasks and stay on track despite distractions. Those with low self-discipline procrastinate and show poor follow-through, often failing to complete tasks-even tasks they want very much to complete. Your level of self-discipline is low.
Cautiousness. Cautiousness describes the disposition to think through possibilities before acting. High scorers on the Cautiousness scale take their time when making decisions. Low scorers often say or do first thing that comes to mind without deliberating alternatives and the probable consequences of those alternatives. Your level of cautiousness is low.

Neuroticism

Freud originally used the term neurosis to describe a condition marked by mental distress, emotional suffering, and an inability to cope effectively with the normal demands of life. He suggested that everyone shows some signs of neurosis, but that we differ in our degree of suffering and our specific symptoms of distress. Today neuroticism refers to the tendency to experience negative feelings. Those who score high on Neuroticism may experience primarily one specific negative feeling such as anxiety, anger, or depression, but are likely to experience several of these emotions. People high in neuroticism are emotionally reactive. They respond emotionally to events that would not affect most people, and their reactions tend to be more intense than normal. They are more likely to interpret ordinary situations as threatening, and minor frustrations as hopelessly difficult. Their negative emotional reactions tend to persist for unusually long periods of time, which means they are often in a bad mood. These problems in emotional regulation can diminish a neurotic's ability to think clearly, make decisions, and cope effectively with stress.

At the other end of the scale, individuals who score low in neuroticism are less easily upset and are less emotionally reactive. They tend to be calm, emotionally stable, and free from persistent negative feelings. Freedom from negative feelings does not mean that low scorers experience a lot of positive feelings; frequency of positive emotions is a component of the Extraversion domain.

Domain/Facet........... Score

NEUROTICISM................72

..Anxiety..................57

..Anger....................66

..Depression...............89

..Self-Consciousness.......38

..Immoderation.............85

..Vulnerability............70

Your score on Neuroticism is high, indicating that you are easily upset, even by what most people consider the normal demands of living. People consider you to be sensitive and emotional.

Neuroticism Facets

Anxiety. The "fight-or-flight" system of the brain of anxious individuals is too easily and too often engaged. Therefore, people who are high in anxiety often feel like something dangerous is about to happen. They may be afraid of specific situations or be just generally fearful. They feel tense, jittery, and nervous. Persons low in Anxiety are generally calm and fearless. Your level of anxiety is average.
Anger. Persons who score high in Anger feel enraged when things do not go their way. They are sensitive about being treated fairly and feel resentful and bitter when they feel they are being cheated. This scale measures the tendency to feel angry; whether or not the person expresses annoyance and hostility depends on the individual's level on Agreeableness. Low scorers do not get angry often or easily. Your level of anger is average.
Depression. This scale measures the tendency to feel sad, dejected, and discouraged. High scorers lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. Low scorers tend to be free from these depressive feelings. Your level of depression is high.
Self-Consciousness. Self-conscious individuals are sensitive about what others think of them. Their concern about rejection and ridicule cause them to feel shy and uncomfortable abound others. They are easily embarrassed and often feel ashamed. Their fears that others will criticize or make fun of them are exaggerated and unrealistic, but their awkwardness and discomfort may make these fears a self-fulfilling prophecy. Low scorers, in contrast, do not suffer from the mistaken impression that everyone is watching and judging them. They do not feel nervous in social situations. Your level or self-consciousness is average.
Immoderation. Immoderate individuals feel strong cravings and urges that they have difficulty resisting. They tend to be oriented toward short-term pleasures and rewards rather than long- term consequences. Low scorers do not experience strong, irresistible cravings and consequently do not find themselves tempted to overindulge. Your level of immoderation is high.
Vulnerability. High scorers on Vulnerability experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. Low scorers feel more poised, confident, and clear-thinking when stressed. Your level of vulnerability is high.

Openness to Experience

Openness to Experience describes a dimension of cognitive style that distinguishes imaginative, creative people from down-to-earth, conventional people. Open people are intellectually curious, appreciative of art, and sensitive to beauty. They tend to be, compared to closed people, more aware of their feelings. They tend to think and act in individualistic and nonconforming ways. Intellectuals typically score high on Openness to Experience; consequently, this factor has also been called Culture or Intellect. Nonetheless, Intellect is probably best regarded as one aspect of openness to experience. Scores on Openness to Experience are only modestly related to years of education and scores on standard intelligent tests.

Another characteristic of the open cognitive style is a facility for thinking in symbols and abstractions far removed from concrete experience. Depending on the individual's specific intellectual abilities, this symbolic cognition may take the form of mathematical, logical, or geometric thinking, artistic and metaphorical use of language, music composition or performance, or one of the many visual or performing arts. People with low scores on openness to experience tend to have narrow, common interests. They prefer the plain, straightforward, and obvious over the complex, ambiguous, and subtle. They may regard the arts and sciences with suspicion, regarding these endeavors as abstruse or of no practical use. Closed people prefer familiarity over novelty; they are conservative and resistant to change.

Openness is often presented as healthier or more mature by psychologists, who are often themselves open to experience. However, open and closed styles of thinking are useful in different environments. The intellectual style of the open person may serve a professor well, but research has shown that closed thinking is related to superior job performance in police work, sales, and a number of service occupations.

Domain/Facet........... Score

OPENNESS TO EXPERIENCE.....15

..Imagination..............18

..Artistic Interests.......3

..Emotionality.............31

..Adventurousness..........17

..Intellect................21

..Liberalism...............64

Your score on Openness to Experience is low, indicating you like to think in plain and simple terms. Others describe you as down-to-earth, practical, and conservative.

Openness Facets

Imagination. To imaginative individuals, the real world is often too plain and ordinary. High scorers on this scale use fantasy as a way of creating a richer, more interesting world. Low scorers are on this scale are more oriented to facts than fantasy. Your level of imagination is low.
Artistic Interests. High scorers on this scale love beauty, both in art and in nature. They become easily involved and absorbed in artistic and natural events. They are not necessarily artistically trained nor talented, although many will be. The defining features of this scale are interest in, and appreciation of natural and artificial beauty. Low scorers lack aesthetic sensitivity and interest in the arts. Your level of artistic interests is low.
Emotionality. Persons high on Emotionality have good access to and awareness of their own feelings. Low scorers are less aware of their feelings and tend not to express their emotions openly. Your level of emotionality is low.
Adventurousness. High scorers on adventurousness are eager to try new activities, travel to foreign lands, and experience different things. They find familiarity and routine boring, and will take a new route home just because it is different. Low scorers tend to feel uncomfortable with change and prefer familiar routines. Your level of adventurousness is low.
Intellect. Intellect and artistic interests are the two most important, central aspects of openness to experience. High scorers on Intellect love to play with ideas. They are open-minded to new and unusual ideas, and like to debate intellectual issues. They enjoy riddles, puzzles, and brain teasers. Low scorers on Intellect prefer dealing with either people or things rather than ideas. They regard intellectual exercises as a waste of time. Intellect should not be equated with intelligence. Intellect is an intellectual style, not an intellectual ability, although high scorers on Intellect score slightly higher than low-Intellect individuals on standardized intelligence tests. Your level of intellect is low.
Liberalism. Psychological liberalism refers to a readiness to challenge authority, convention, and traditional values. In its most extreme form, psychological liberalism can even represent outright hostility toward rules, sympathy for law-breakers, and love of ambiguity, chaos, and disorder. Psychological conservatives prefer the security and stability brought by conformity to tradition. Psychological liberalism and conservatism are not identical to political affiliation, but certainly incline individuals toward certain political parties. Your level of liberalism is average.

Mainly for my own resourse =P

2006-10-23T05:32:00.000+01:00

Feeling...

2006-10-18T01:14:00.000+01:00

...
isolated...
cold...
numb...
alone...

... empty

but hey,

i'll be alright
i'm always alright...

right?

29%

2006-10-08T15:44:00.000+01:00

So.
I'm Back

where to start?

well i suppose i should start with news

Andrew and I are nolonger together.
i'm not gonna get tinto details, those who know me, an who needed to know, know the reasoning and the whys.
I...
well one way its been put is that i seem to have fallen out of love.

that numbing of the sences, i still care for him, by no means do i hate him, like i do some previous boyfriends, i just simply didnt feel like being with him in the context of a lover was right
and for both our best interests, i finnished, a week to late albeit, but i couldn't drag him further, the hurt wouldhave been much more, i can just say that i hope he'll oneday understand that if i had carried on, fake, it would have hurt him even more, i didnt want to hurt him even as much as i already have.

I regret the meathod; telephone, next to the internet is possibly one of the most evil inventions for a couple to have to use, especially in a longdistance relationship.
so, i'm sorry for the hurt, and im sorry for the somewhat difficult position ive put our mutual friends in.

but thats as far as it goes.

aside from the break up (or down?) im actually doing really quite well :)

ive been back in Swansea for over a month now, this has made me happy, classes only started last week, so ive mainly been seeing friends, going out, and making new friends.
im in a REAL house now, living with 3 most excellent people, and enjying my time with them too, getting this house to a home, seeing as now i feel that swansea is definatly more of a home than oxford is, or ever was...

a house post will (eventually) follow, once ive got my damned camera to work again, and tidied my room (im still unpacking XD)...

so yes, apologies, no Great Japan Post yet, still, but it's in the making :)

Ooo yes - great happiness - for those who know, ive been addicted to DeviantArt for a while, and one of my favorite artists is a guy called Budgie, and look! he's sold one of his originals; a beautiful piece.
guess who too?
woo :D
happt happy happy joyness
im so happy, and for me its such an honour to own someone elses piece of art.
weird you may say, as i'm an artist too, but what can i say? his work IS awsome...

so yes, deviantart, where i spend atleast half of my brousing hours (we have WiFi, so why the hell not?? :P)

a little more sad, i have a Myspace now too; here but hey, its quite fun, and how the majority of my friends were keeping intouch over the summer...
(add me if you're bored enough to have one too)
what can i say? ^^;

last but not least (for now)
something i found on one of my random internet trawlings;

Start with 100%, and take away 1% for everything you've done/that's happened to you on this list.

Smoked.
Drank alcohol.
Cried when someone died.
Been drunk.
Had sex.
Been to a concert.
Given a handjob/gotten a handjob.
Given a blowjob/gotten a blowjob.
Been verbally sexually harassed.
Verbally sexually harassed somebody.
Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
Been to prom.
Cried at school.
Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
Went streaking.
Given a lap dance.
Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.
Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
Kissed a stranger.
Hugged a stranger.
Went scuba diving.
Driven a car.
Gotten an xray.
Hit by a car.
Had a party.
Done drugs.
Played strip poker.
Got paid to strip for someone.
Ran away from home.
Broken a bone.
Eaten sushi.
Bought porn.
Watched porn.
Made porn.
Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
Been in love.
Frenched kissed.
Laughed so hard you cried.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Laughed yourself to sleep.
Stabbed yourself.
Shot a gun.
Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
Watched an animal die.
Watched a person die.
Had sex and/or messed around somewhere with atleast 1 person present.
Pranked somebody.
Put somebody in the hospital.
Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
Kissed somebody of the same sex.
Dressed punk.
Dressed goth.
Dressed preppy.
Been to a motocross race.
Avoided somebody.
Been stalked.
Stalked someone.
Met a celebrity.
Played an instrument.
Ridden a horse.
Cut yourself.
Bungee jumped.
Ding dong ditched somebody.
Been to a wild party.
Got caught stealing something.
Kicked a guy in the balls.
Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
Went out with your friend's crush.
Got arrested.
Been pregnant.
Babysat.
Been to another country.
Started your house on fire.
Had an encounter with a ghost.
Donated your hair to cancer patients.
Been asked out by someone that you never though you'd to be asked out by.
Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months.
Sat on your ass all day.
Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
Had a job.
Gotten cut from a sports team.
Been called a whore.
Danced like a whore.
Been mistaken for a celebrity.
Been in a car accident.
Been told you have beautiful eyes.
Been told you have beautiful hair.
Raped somebody/ been raped.
Danced in the rain.
Been rejected.
Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
Punched someone/slapped someone in the face

my percent is the Title of this post, incase you were wondering ;)

so, do tell, what are you?

Involuntary

2006-09-09T01:15:00.000+01:00

i'm involuntarily gonna be offline for probably atleast 2 weeks, while i move into my new student accomodation (a house shared with 3 excellent people! :D) which, to be honest i've been looking forward too all summer. problem being, i'm the first moving in, which means it's me that gets to sort out everyting from getting a phone line to TV licence... Gah...

atleast i won't be paying for it all alone; we're gonna split the cost of broadband and TV licence and buy a wireless router between us; so should make things easier :)

so how will i survive without my precious internet?

i guess i can use the time to draft up some actuall blog entries eg abou this house; and as i promiced sooo long ago (almost a year -oops) the great- Japan post :P hehe

i'm also hoping to do some more art work to keep me busy; all of which will be posted up on my DeviantArt account, which you don't need your own account to view, plus its free and i'm *kinda* addicted to it hehe...

once online again i'll try to get some of my better works up on the everyday blog, i promice!!!

So why am i moving back so early??( i don't even enroll till end of september)

well as i said, ive been looking forward to moving and settling in all summer, but i also need to find myself a job, and simply having time to settle in before classes start will be a great help :)

oh well, till then...

oh, and if you do need me; call me (anyone who needs to contact me has my Mobile No. :P )

More crap ^^

2006-08-08T22:46:00.000+01:00

I am 91% Evil Genius.

I am pure evil. I lie awake at night devising schemes of world domination, and I will not rest until all living souls bend to my will.

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I am 79% Promiscuous.

I am never satisfied. I spend most of the time getting some or figuring out how to get some. It's why we were put here. Something that feels that good should done often and for long periods of time.

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hahahahaha
erm.... pos not such a good thing hehe

I am 70% Tortured Artist.

Art is significant in my life, people are scum but I have the capicity to deal with it. Give it a few more years and I will either forget about art or hate the world.

Take the
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so long as im not a *fine atrist* :P

Which Studio Ghibli Character Are You Most Like? (girls only)

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i do these WAY too much.... :P

2006-08-03T02:04:00.000+01:00

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	40%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	40%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Religious	\|\|	10%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|	24%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Female cliche	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%

Stability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

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haha

2006-07-22T14:41:00.000+01:00

You scored as Goth. You're A Goth!

Rocker, Mosher

70%

Goth

70%

Trendy

40%

Prepy

30%

Skater

20%

Chav, Townie, Rude Boy, Ned, Kev

10%

Emo

10%

What Group Are You? Chav, Rocker, Skater, Emo, Goth, Trendy, Prepy Ect
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at least im not emo ^^

HINOI!!!

2006-07-04T03:17:00.000+01:00

Hehe, well what can i say?
what isnt there to like??(with exception of Korriki[the fat old guy] o___0 )

Cute Japanese girls doing eurobeat :P ^__^

(the last 4 are para-para versions - if you dont know what para-para is, this gives quite a good break-down)

eh... not sure which ones my fav, they all so cute ^^

how is that eurobeat sounds *so* much better in japanses, or for that matter any language that isn't german? ;)

he he

2006-06-25T20:38:00.000+01:00

here

all for now

once i have access to a decent scaner, i will post up some of my work from this year on my everyday blog site :)

byes for now ^^

I....

2006-06-10T04:03:00.000+01:00

I...

... want to just curl up

to insulate from the cold

of feeling so alone

in a crowd

...

I should......

clear my room,

make order from the chaos

that is slowly taking over

and swallowing me up...

BUT

its hard to

when theres no motivation
to start and

no praise

at the end

I need to

Stop.

in other news....

2006-05-17T23:59:00.000+01:00

so, ive rejoined cadets.

so far so good; Im currently a CI (Civilian Instructor) until my paperwork is all back in and through the system, then i'll beable to go straight up to PPO (Probationary Petty Officer).

Swansea unit it's self is good; the actual unit is about 3 times teh size of Oxfords - they have 3 floors! o__0 I've been accepted well by staff and cadets alike, i went for a night out with 2 of the younger PO's the other week, which was good, especially as it turned out to be a free night out ^_^

its still weird being staff for me; the last time i was at cadets, i had only just come out of being a cadet; and was therefore still adjusting; being at a new unit helps a little, as i automatically have the distance between myself and the cadets; but its hard not to be too friendly, trying to keep some form of superiority above them.

anyway, its all fun, and hopefully i'll be getting out on the water with them soon - first helping out with their kayaking group, then hopefully with sailing (my forte). its hard to try to explain to the juniors that i'll be gone again in about a month, but that i'll be back agin in september.
kinda sucks cos i'd like to stick around and do sailing withtehm in teh bay, to and from mumbles, but theres always next year :-)

For those that dont know, Rhodri, Abby, Tom and me signed for our house in febuary, and if things move on as planned will beable to move in at the beggining of next month! (we cant at teh moment because the house has quite litteralyy been gutted - theyre putting in new doors and carpets, and repainting for us!
We're al really looking forward to beingable to move all our swtuff in, and working out where to put everything in the house - some has already been debated - ie, we get one cupboard each in teh kitchen, one shelf in teh fridge, my TV's going in the living room etc....
all gooood :D - i can say im already planning (in my head) where to put everything in my room!
Yays ^_^

Hmmm
so ive just had *news* (aka rumour) that the girls have found this blog (well congratulations) , and are a little upset by one of my posts (im guessing this post - but only guessing seeing as they havnt actually talked to me yet).

well, what can i say?
except Tough Shit.

im allowed my own opinion, and im allowed to voice it as i wish; yes i take the piss, as im sure they do me, so no hard feelings, huh?
so girls, if youre reading this, leave a comment if you want, or even better, come talk to me, despite the dog collars; i dont bite ;-)

i've been told to hurry up and get a japan post done. i will, as soon as i get a decent internet connection :)
in the meentime, you can see pictures HERE (select Japan Photos - you'll need a MSN (hotmail etc...) account to see them - sorry ^^ )

2006-05-03T23:51:00.000+01:00

a man was walking along one day, when suddenly he realized he had stumbled down into a hole, and try as he might, he couldn't find his way back out again.

after a time, a doctor passed by, and the man called up to him: "hey doc, can you help me? i'm stuck in this hole and i can't get out." the doctor wrote out a prescription, threw it into the hole, and continued on his way.

a while later a priest passed by, and the man called up, "father, can you help me? i'm stuck down in this hole and i can't get out." the priest wrote out a prayer, dropped it into the hole, and continued on.

what seemed an eternity later, a friend came by, and the man called up, "hey, billy, can you help me? i'm stuck in this hole, and i can't get out." without hesitation, the friend jumped right in with him.

"what did you do that for?" the man said. "now we're both in a hole."

"don't worry," the friend said. "i've been down here before. i know the way out."

i had fallen
into that deep hole

the drugs made me hallucinate, i dont believe in prayer, it was becoming darker, the sheets redder.

it took a cadet; a young boy who looked up to me a role model; telling me he thought my self harm; my survival meathod was "cool"
to get me to snap out.

and climb back up.

2006-04-27T03:15:00.000+01:00

is it wrong that growing up scares me?

it worries me. really.
too much responsability.

and thats just for looking after myself....

becy mappppp 222222222222222222222222... (etc, etc...)

2006-04-17T23:50:00.000+01:00

map removed - well umm changed at Abi's request ^^

This is what happens when i get bored....

2006-03-16T02:14:00.000Z

ok explaination:
i went to chat to Rhodri (being bored as i was), he has these really cool markers that come in pure pantone shades, one just happens to be Pantone 327 T - a lovely shade of turquoise-green, and well....

i was bored....

urgh.
i hate taking pictures of myself :P

wow, i look sooo rough, but it is 2 am....

the *lil* one on the right is just to show you what coulour it really looks like. ~(stupid camera / white balence)

i dont think the markers are too permenant, do no biggies anyway :)

Andrew's still gonna kill me tho :P

Welcome to Gloucester Chambers!

2006-03-16T01:47:00.000Z

Apparently it was a Bunny night

What can i say?

and yes, Genna's Knickers arnt completely Opaque... *shudder*

whats more scary was that it was aparently at a gay bar....

those poor guys!

Blarrr

2006-03-06T02:18:00.000Z

Essay

Evil.

due in tommorrow.

'nuff said.

x__x

Dan

2006-02-23T00:56:00.000Z

I still miss you.

Donate

Look - a post!

2006-02-22T15:14:00.000Z

So, its been pointed out to me that i havn't posted for a while. my reply?
well, i havnt really had anything to write about, well not anything i was willing to/ thought intersting enough to share with the world.
but, having said that, in a random fit of boredom and relaisation that i need to get out more ( - note this does not mean i need to go and get drunk, this means i should actually GO OUTSIDE), i went for a reletively pleasent walk along the beach, eventually alone, as everyone else was busy (ohwell).
needless to say, i took my camera^^

it was about 4 pm i set out, and the sun was beggining to sink, but i was lovely and bright :)
there were a few dog walkers, one let me takr some photos of her sweet long-hair Alsatians, called East and West, West was the youngest i think.
I then began taking pictures of the pretty shells in the sand, and teh abstract patterns they made, all very intersting...
evidence of gulls, but none were to be seen... (funny, there's always enough in the town centre)
as i got further away from land (the tide was right out), sand became rocks
then , the sun began to sink...
which managed to bathe everything in a lovely golden light
at this point, as the sun was rapidly disapearing, and with it what little warmth i had been gaining from it, i decided to head back (i hadn't walk more that 500 metres along the beach, but as the tide was out, the beach was about 300 metres wide...) The promenade, in the low light

And now, for your viewing pleasure; the beautiful sunset...

The area i walked, coutesy Google Earth. not far along the beach, but quite a way out...

Observe!

2006-02-06T01:46:00.000Z

My amazing cooking skillz!

2006-01-29T17:51:00.000Z

conundrum

2006-01-27T17:24:00.000Z

ok, i've 'joined up' to illustarion friday

^ its not working, is it?

linky

anyways - all my submissions will be on my everyday blog

see ya there ^^

2006-01-27T16:00:00.000Z

from abi blog :

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
"Ocha de mo ii desu" i said. [Tea will be fine] {Lesley Downer: Geisha - the remarkable truth behing the fiction}

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
Wall, Window (ouch - arm still bent - damn box room!)

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
ER on steve's TV while he dies repetedly on battlefield 2 (more amusing than ER)

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
3.30ish?

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
3.41

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
nowt - music is quite loud

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
About 2 hours ago - to get (run) to my last assesement {yays)

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
My anime/ezine links

9. What are you wearing?
My remade black trousers (the ones with green in them), black top(supprised?), underwear, Ex's socks (i forgot to give them back)

10. Did you dream last night?
dont remember
did i sleep?

11. When did you last laugh?
at steve, dying lots last night

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Various posters (dolphin, Hokusai, '?', Anime fest), colour wheel, Large piece o work, street map of Swansea(with I am here on it), varios photos, various takeaway menus (none ive used so far...), Fire Alarm {EVIL}

13. Seen anything weird lately?
Jonnie, smiling (trust, its weird :s )

14. What do you think of this quiz?
survivable

15. What is the last film you saw?
Lethal Weapon 3 / Memoirs of a Geisha :( )

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
My own place, an new computer, yacht
^^

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
i had breakfast a t 11 pm yeaterday (twas the forst thing i ate that day .: brakfast)

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
get rid of globalism / USA's power

19. Do you like to dance?
Only when no one can see ^^

20. George Bush:
"Oook?"

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
sineta/ Okichio or something individual like that - nothing european

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Kiharu, again, along the same lines of girls name; originalish ^^

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Japan!!!!

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
" I think you've got the wrong number..." / " i thought i had a restaining order against you?"

WTF

2006-01-13T19:18:00.000Z

right
andrew is no longer the only one who has reason to dislike their 'flatmates'.
[lastnight]
2.30 am : i finnish working (i had been talking to andrew online), clear up bed
3am : steve (night guard) finnishes work, goes home. Lyndsy, Genna, Ava and othe drunk fools turn up. i attemp to get to sleep.
3.30am: Scream - from outside, followed by giggles. more general noise from the drunk ones. Ava loudly declares she is going to bed (good i think - maybe the'll all shut the fuck up)
4am: THUMP - from upstairs - fairly worrying - followed by many more loud bangs (last time there was thumps like that from upstairs was when some random drunks broke in and trashed the place(last term)) - i am now sufficiantly worried. throw on dressing gown and enter corridor to see paul retreating upstairs. i retire - decide to read until they shut the fuck up
4.30 : choros of giggles and elongated stampede of Genna/ Lyndsy.
5 am: its gone quiet. maybe they have collapsed (relish thought)
5.10 am: Fire alarm (i needent say more - abi, andrew and pete - you all know how awful the alarm is)
5.30 : i finnish the book. start composing phone call to mike (the bossman)
5.50 - alam is finally stopped
6 am onwards: thump more giggles - i try to sleep

8am : alamclock goes off - i turn it off and go back to sleep
9.30 : my class starts
11ish : my class finnishes
12.26 : i wake up to - guess: giggles - bollocks. go back to sleep
4.50 : wake up again - decide if i had planned to do anything its too late now. go back to sleep
6.50 : wake again . decide to get up and shower (i needed it)
7.20 am now writing this to LOUD slipknot
am now gonna Call Mike (after turning down slipknot)

suffice to say i am not a happy bunny - nor a bunny or other small furry animal of any description, or for that matter happy.

Grr.

revenge WILL be had.

2005-11-28T22:10:00.000Z

:: UPDATED :: (again)

uber quick thing, mainly to remind me what i need to do............

~~perspective pics - one with 2 point, one with 3 point and also virgin airline / ikea adverts~~ assesed - still have to do, but is less of a priority ^^
life drawing - more life drawings, building/structure drawings - 3 from swansea, 3 from japan
postcard/advert project - just more generally
~~essay (1500 words)~~ done
~~colour theory - 2 1/2 more thumb nails~~ done
and just some more general sketching from japan

essay due in on 12th, all others need to be done asap - perpective and colour theory by friday
yays >.<
do (alot) more on "postcard" project
Derek's Project - "Object"
Illustrator Project - Poss Lion With and Wardrobe / diff. Narnia book?

As promised.... : THE ROOM OF CRAMPED DOOOOOOOOM :P

2005-09-28T00:45:00.000+01:00

As the title rather gives it away....never mind - I shall start from the beginning....... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ it started on Friday 16th with me packing what I considered to b the essentials that weren’t clothes or computers, we were travelling down on the 17th as I had to be there for an induction type thing, anyway, as it turned out what I though to be the essentials was in fact a large pile, and later a whole car full!

The pile of stuff in the living room on friday night

The pile now as an entire car full... we (dad and I) were supposed to be leaving for Swansea at about 9 on sat, but as we are both alike, I was woken by dad at 8.30 and we eventually left at about 10, arriving at Swansea at about 1.30. the journey was mainly uneventful except for when we stopped for (what turned out to be an over priced and crap) lunch at Cardiff service where we (dad) got rather lost and it took us 3 goes just trying to find the car park! :P when we eventually arrived it turned out that the induction was basically signing contracts and handing over money etc :P I was then shown the room. Put it this way; compared to the other rooms in the building i'm in a cupboard.... it’s approximately 2x3.5 metres and consists of a built in cupboard, bed, desk, draws, shelves and a fridge. I also have a window; the window is only a little smaller than the room!
Here come the pictures....

We started unloading the car, at which point the total emotion of the day, along with the utter shock of exactly how small the room was took over and I started crying, but dad comforted me, so we finished moving stuff, slightly hindered by having to lock and unlock the car and my room each time we moved stuff, we then went off to the train station to meet mum who had been at (an apparently very boring) conference in Bristol and so had gotten the direct train, we then wondered through the main shopping streets and had a quick look at the still unfinished new art block that I was supposed to be starting in one weeks time (dad wasn’t surprised :P). We then went back to the room so mum could see it - she also was quite taken aback by the size. We went back into the town and bought a few boxes so I could store stuff under my bed. I semi unpacked and then we went searching for mum and dads accommodation - they were staying at a B&B on the Gower peninsular, and dinner. you'd have thought finding food would be easy.... we took about 3 hours wondering around the ENITIRE Swansea / Gower area, before finally deciding on a Italian restaurant about 100 metres away from my room, by the time we were ordering dessert it was about 10.30, Andrew called to see what was happening as I should have called him at about 10, and to say that he was tired and so would be sleeping soon, I promised to call soon, but just as we were finishing I got a text from Andrew saying he was sleeping now, I tried to call him but he had already turned off his phone which upset me quite allot because with all the drama and crap after the day I really wanted to just talk to him, I had a go a mum about this as it was her fault we hadn’t eaten earlier because she was being picky about where we ate. I went back to my room, where I met the others who had also moved in that day and we stayed up together talking and drinking a little, one of the boys, Anthony had a cold which I now have (grrr), I eventually went to sleep at about 1am.
I was woken a t 8 by the fire alarm, here there is an alarm and a detector in every room - so the noise was quite painful. As soon as it was asserted that the alarm was false due to another of the boys, peter, cooking bacon and it smoking very slightly - the sensors are extremely sensitive. I then called Andrew and we talked for about an hour - I told him all about the day and the room, he was quite surprised that I had such a small room - even smaller than his!after that I decided to walk down to the Tescos as it opens at about 10 on Sundays, while I was there I called parents and had them meet me there to pay for my new supplies. we then all went into Swansea town centre and found that, unlike oxford nearly everything actually closes on Sundays - we did manage to find a shoe zone where we all spent a while trying on various shoes - I got 3 new pairs of shoes (new trainers, boots and some slip on trainer type things) all for £28 - which I was quite impressed about! We also found a discount shop where I bought a large box to put things under the bed in and we headed back to my room where we packed the food (all non perishables) into the box and found space for it under the bed. I then reported the fact my bed was broken a bit and that we would bring me a new chair on the next week, and I then had breakfast.We finished attempting to pack things away and then went to lunch (it was almost 3 at this time). Mum liked the look of a Mexican place so we went there, while we were having pudding (yes, pudding with lunch - we were hungry) I applied for a job there - but they haven’t gotten back to me yet (will chase it up on Friday). We then went home.

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The next Friday (23rd) after trying to delay Andrews departure (sadly failed) I repeated the steps of packing all my stuff and realising I had nearly the same amount as I did the first trip, we packed my mirror, the bedside cabinet (that is now an in-wardrobe cabinet) and mums office chair. On Saturday morning I got up early (8 - its early for me, ok?) and finished the last of my packing, I then went for an all out clean of my room, I now had a semi empty room WITH A FLOOR!!!!!! (Wow) - was kinda funny - I then had a quick breakfast and we loaded the car, this time it was all of us going so I went in the back, with half the seats down - I had just enough space! :) Mum and Dad bickered all the way so I ignored them and slept for most of it. The journey was ok; but as we came off the M4 we hit a huge traffic jam that delayed us for about half an hour, during which the ntl guy called and asked where I was as they were installing all the modems. We arrived and I found the guy, we then unpacked the car, and as parents were getting under my feet I sent them away while I unpacked and the ntl guy installed my modem and phone line. after I had unpacked most of my stuff dad came in and put up my mirror, then we went shopping for all the perishable foods we hadn’t got the week before, mum unpacked the shopping and I finished unpacking the rest of my gear, I hadn’t perfected my room, but it looked good, and as soon as I put posters up it felt allot better and I relaxed a little. It was about 4 then (I can’t remember what we did for lunch) so we said our last goodbyes which was quite emotional, dad cried which is the first time I think I've ever really seen him cry. I went back to my room and carried on unpacking/ packing things away, then met some of the people I had met the last weekend. we went to the student bar in taxis (its in Townhill campus; on the other side of Swansea) and hung out then, I got to know a few people, including Abby, a girl whose room is directly below mine, and yet twice as big, and Rhodri who both live on the bottom floor, we chatted for quite a while and eventually (somehow) got back to Mount Pleasant campus, and from there went back home. I found out the guy directly above me is called Jay (I think) and is a bit of a tosser, he played loud music all night, and as his speakers are on his floor the music might as well be in my room! luckily he hasn’t played the music like that since, so its ok :) On Sunday I slept in, and when I got up I decided I wanted to do a sign for my room, so I did :
I then started to finish the final stages of tidying my room and finding places for everything; I discovered that the new bed they put in was slightly lower than the old and so I had to rearrange things so I would be able to get them out. when I was finally happy with how my room was I emerged from my room, at about 1 pm, I want hungry so I didn’t bother having breakfast till about 2. I went to Tescos to buy some ready meals as I was unsure I could be bothered to cook properly. people were going out again to drink but feeling ill from the cold I stayed in and cooked my food, I found people in the downstairs kitchen and we gently migrated up to my (the middle) kitchen where we sat and chatted, I met a few more people so it was good. Now, Pictures:

Gloucester Chambers from the outside, it is a very pretty building

my room, still just as small, but alot nicer now!

my window, with my pirate flag :D Yarrrr!

My *wonderful* view from my window, and yes, it's raining :(

My kitchen (im opposite it), being populated by Gareth (front), Patricia (cleaning) and Anthony (back, the evil cold giver - except that he's lovely :) )

My clever little storage solutions - I'm kinda proud of them ^^

Abby

Rhodri

Jonny - room 18, just down the hall - hes funny ^^

Steve, (with Jonny behind him) my next door neighbour - he has sky - my saviour! :P

well, i think thats about it for one Uber update. Will update about the last few days after dinner ^^

Quick upload of pics from Dav's Party

2005-09-27T01:23:00.000+01:00

2005-09-05T04:33:00.000+01:00

I guess I should update.... but I want to talk about a blog I have been reading: Gods and Ghosts, I like it, and it’s kind of hard to explain how, or why I like itI like it because as the link that I got it from stated; it’s a perspective from the unseen or atleast ignored of society. For me it is compelling, it is personal and I emphasise with her, some parts of her I still identify with... hard for someone who isn’t me to understand...

it has made me think a little more about how superficial my life is, and how lucky I am in life, how petty my little problems seem compared to hers; my worries about friends, and my slowly deteriorating relationship with my parents; here is a girl - a lady who has so little in her life and yet somehow it seems bigger than my own. I guess it reflects upon my own life highlights within me my own common feelings of guilt and feeling lost within my self, often.I still find it hard to put anything I feel or ideas I have into words - written or spoken; I can dictate to myself whole speeches of emotion, but when it comes to making the words something existent ; real they are no longer there, I cannot draw upon them, bring them out. Instead they either stay locked away in my mazed subconscious or come out in furious tears shed at 3am, triggered by something insubstantial - a memory or just a phrase, from my past, or occasionally my imagined future.I do not know what to say to friends reading this, I can only imagine the reactions, emotions and assumptions formed, but all I imagine is pitiful, more woe to add to my overflowing subconscious. it occurs to me that one remedy to it all is to actually sleep at night, rather then in the early morning hours that I do now, avoid my private haunted hour, but another voice inside my head speaks up, asks then what? - I would only then breakdown in the daylight; in front of others in front of those I care about (whether I know them or not). and if I did; somehow I would have failed; I do not 'bottle up' myself so to protect myself as to protect others from myself; only I know what I am capable of; what pain and hurt I can unleash when I truly 'let go'. I do not know exactly what would happen, I do not like to think... and now I debate with myself whether or not to publish this post, thinking again to what their reactions will be, but I still know that they would want to know; I have been begged to reveal my self to others, and still I don’t, I am uncertain, scared and scarred

I think I've swallowed more drugs than food today...

2005-08-20T23:54:00.000+01:00

painkillers mainly, and most probably too many
to day I have taken, in varying amounts;
ibuprofen
paracetamol
paracetamol and codine combine
and various other natural painkillers / remedies I can put my hands on

basicly its not good - I had a filling put in on Friday on one molar , and now the one next to it (the lower right 2nd molar) is killing me

even more annoyingly - I can't see anyone about until Monday...

will update properly when I have time / energy/ can be bothered :D ;P

--------------------------- UPDATE ---------------------------

OK, so saw the 'emergency' dentist today (paid Â£5.52 for theprivilegee), Apparently, its notanythingg horrible like an abscess, but its most probably my Wisdom Teeth coming through, and that they might be 'impacted' as Mum's wisdom teeth were (she had hers removed).
so I'm now on evenmore antibiotics and anti-inflammatories, and am needing stronger painkillers.
One thing I found vaguely amusing was mum offering me some of her Vioxx (consider the current News) left over from her Edometriosis.

2005-07-24T16:00:00.000+01:00

The new pic I am now using for my profile;
And the resized crappy one im having to actually use cos of file size :P
reason? mainly cos i got bored of teh old one, and also needed summin a lil more 'classy' for my new blog .

2005-07-03T00:34:00.000+01:00

hedgehog pete

2005-07-02T23:17:00.000+01:00

petey pineapple

soon soon

2005-06-26T23:09:00.000+01:00

sorry no update for a while - will update soon with lotsa pictures once i find the cable for my camrea again :P

Race For Life

2005-06-06T01:54:00.000+01:00

So, as I am sure most of you readers will already know(or guessed from the title) on saturday i took part in the Tesco Race For Life in aid of Cancer Research UK, i walked 5km, and if everyone pays will have raised over £100! I decided to do the race in full Goth Gear to try to raise a little more money, and for the fun.

Most of you dont know my reasons for taking part. there are 3 main reasons:

Two of my Aunts have both had (and thankfully) survived Breast Cancer
In 2003 (when I was 16) I had a lump removed from my left breast removed. luckily it was benine, but with two close blood reletives having had the disease the threat is still quite real
Also in 2003 Dan, afriend from sailing, who infact taught me how to race-sail died from cancer, a few days after i had the lump removed. The website dedicated to him and life-long dream of having the Challenger (a disabled sailing boat) accepted as an international standard racing Sailing Dingy has disappeared :'(
Basically Dan was a graet person, always smiling no matter how much pain he was in. he had tried Chemotherepy but it made him so ill he couldnt sail, so he gave it up. i was on work experience at the sailing club when he won the world sailability (disabled sailing) championships...
The cancer tumour was between his heart and spine so it was impossible for doctors to operate. he was admitted to hospital on the day i had the operation (17th Feb) and, celebrated his 21st birthday a month early, and finally passed away apparently peacefully on 23rd Febuary. i still miss him

Dan, who never stopped sailing....

Back to the race;

was woken at about 10 and had shower, finnished shower at which point andrew turned up, spent a *small* time turning my room upside-down trying to find my clothes, (put them on) then caught the bus into town where we went to Hero's for lunch (breakfast for me) before carring on to University Parks where the race was taking plave, then stood around waiting for things to happen [Note to self; Areobics is not easy in New Rock boots]

The Pretty Makeup ^^

See. Pretty

Before the "Race"

Starting off well....

and i kept on going...

And going...

And going....

till i (finally) stopped

the race itself went quite well, after about 1 km the boots started to rub, but i chose to ignore the more-annyoying-than-anything-else pain.

i was just coming around the last corner to the last approx 20 metre streach when i heard people counting down to the hour mark from the start hearing i only had about a minuite left i chose to run the last streach - no mean feat in big heavy boots and with the amount of other people around at that time. i saw andrew running behind me and also ran past Mum, who looked supprised if nothing else...

andrew had to run to try to catch up/ get infront of me as i ran the last streach

the finnish line, just after i moved out of shot :-P ;-)

My poor poor heals...

as i has suspected ( from about the halfway mark) my heels were blistered - especially my right heel.

unfortunatly both pete and abi were busy; abi having her first exams on monday (goodluck hun! :D) and pete still having a *small* workload, although we did try calling pete - unfortunatly his battery had died, but it was probably for the best; we carried in to work where we had (large) milkshakes :D - i think i earned it :P ^^

will post a picture of my "medal" once i get a picture of it...

pets!

2005-06-05T04:58:00.000+01:00

ok, so i know i promiced to do an update about my race for life - but this first....

INFJ - apparently :P

2005-05-27T18:41:00.000+01:00

Your Type is INFJ
Introverted - 22%

Intuitive - 38%

Feeling - 25%

Judging - 1%

You are:
slightly expressed introvert
moderately expressed intuitive personality
moderately expressed feeling personality
slightly expressed judging personality

Beneath the quiet exterior, INFJs hold deep convictions about the weightier matters of life. Those who are activists -- INFJs gravitate toward such a role -- are there for the cause, not for personal glory or political power.
INFJs are champions of the oppressed and downtrodden. They often are found in the wake of an emergency, rescuing those who are in acute distress. INFJs may fantasize about getting revenge on those who victimize the defenseless. The concept of 'poetic justice' is appealing to the INFJ.
"There's something rotten in Denmark." Accurately suspicious about others' motives, INFJs are not easily led. These are the people that you can rarely fool any of the time. Though affable and sympathetic to most, INFJs are selective about their friends. Such a friendship is a symbiotic bond that transcends mere words.
INFJs have a knack for fluency in language and facility in communication. In addition, nonverbal sensitivity enables the INFJ to know and be known by others intimately.
Writing, counseling, public service and even politics are areas where INFJs frequently find their niche.
Functional Analysis:
Introverted iNtuition
Introverted intuitives, INFJs enjoy a greater clarity of perception of inner, unconscious processes than all but their INTJ cousins. Just as SP types commune with the object and "live in the here and now" of the physical world, INFJs readily grasp the hidden psychological stimuli behind the more observable dynamics of behavior and affect. Their amazing ability to deduce the inner workings of the mind, will and emotions of others gives INFJs their reputation as prophets and seers. Unlike the confining, routinizing nature of introverted sensing, introverted intuition frees this type to act insightfully and spontaneously as unique solutions arise on an event by event basis.
Extraverted Feeling
Extraverted feeling, the auxiliary deciding function, expresses a range of emotion and opinions of, for and about people. INFJs, like many other FJ types, find themselves caught between the desire to express their wealth of feelings and moral conclusions about the actions and attitudes of others, and the awareness of the consequences of unbridled candor. Some vent the attending emotions in private, to trusted allies. Such confidants are chosen with care, for INFJs are well aware of the treachery that can reside in the hearts of mortals. This particular combination of introverted intuition and extraverted feeling provides INFJs with the raw material from which perceptive counselors are shaped.
Introverted Thinking
The INFJ's thinking is introverted, turned toward the subject. Perhaps it is when the INFJ's thinking function is operative that he is most aloof. A comrade might surmise that such detachment signals a disillusionment, that she has also been found lacking by the sardonic eye of this one who plumbs the depths of the human spirit. Experience suggests that such distancing is merely an indication that the seer is hard at work and focusing energy into this less efficient tertiary function.
Extraverted Sensing
INFJs are twice blessed with clarity of vision, both internal and external. Just as they possess inner vision which is drawn to the forms of the unconscious, they also have external sensing perception which readily takes hold of worldly objects. Sensing, however, is the weakest of the INFJ's arsenal and the most vulnerable. INFJs, like their fellow intuitives, may be so absorbed in intuitive perceiving that they become oblivious to physical reality. The INFJ under stress may fall prey to various forms of immediate gratification. Awareness of extraverted sensing is probably the source of the "SP wannabe" side of INFJs. Many yearn to live spontaneously; it's not uncommon for INFJ actors to take on an SP (often ESTP) role.

its all true :P

OoooOOOOOoooooooooooooooooOOOooooooooooOOOoO00000000oooooOOOOO

2005-05-23T01:29:00.000+01:00

so i thought i should actually update this at some point... :P

right.....
well, to cut a long long story down to mearly a long story...

FMP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

argh
urgh....

well, the basic idea is that i do a *few* illustrations to communicate the world that one of my favorite authors, China Mieville has created in his books Perdido Street Station, The Scar and Iron Council.

it was a nice idea...

i now have 1 week left to do 4 pieces in, do a small mountain of research and write the diary i was supposed to keep :P

arg, so dead.....

will update more soon i promice!

So pretty,,,,,

2005-04-19T23:43:00.000+01:00

You are the depressed/dreamer anime girl.You either
lost somebody you love or somebody broke you
heart so bad that you can't pick up the
shattered pieces without hurting yourself.You
think nobody can heal your wounds but don't
stop looking because you never know who loves
you enough to try hell the one special guy
could be right infront of your eyes and you
don't even know it.You also love to day dream
because it seems like the only place that makes
you happy.BBut little do you know that people
all around you are trying to make you happy and
you won't let them in fearing you'll get
another heartbreak or get hurt worse.But just
try and if things go wrong just brush it off
and try again.It never hurts to try.One more
thing never let that lost love one leave you
heart keep them in forever and keep their
memory alive.

If You Were An Anime Character What Would You Look Like?(Girls Only)
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but the warrior anime girl is too. :S

Das be me

2005-04-19T19:24:00.000+01:00

Dark - You think the top of style is gothic
cathedrals and anything black and revealing.
Good for you! You are not evil, but you like to
put out that bad boy/girl persona. You can also
be very stubborn at time, you know what you
want.
What Faerie Personality Are You?
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You are a Ninja.
You are like a samurai gone bad. The good side
is no longer interesting you and feel that
darkness is where you belong. Though you may
think you are the evil one, you're not. Because
deep inside there is still that little glimpse
of who you once were. You don't like to
associate with people that much and keep away.
In your mind they are ignorant and not so
interesting anyway. That means you are a lonley
person who don't trust people, and you have
really no desire to do so either. Life is a big
pain and annoyance for you and you aren't quite
sure on how to handle it. Other people see you
as mysterious and secretive, and that is
probably right.

Main weapon: Daggers and throwing
stars
Quote: "I hate people. People make
me pro-nuclear" -Margaret Smith
Facial expression: Frown

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
brought to you by Quizilla

aww i wanted to be the maniack killer - her pic's cooler
see:

I'm Copying Abi....And???

2005-04-15T03:04:00.000+01:00

having more important things i could be doing, i therfore almost automaticly end up doing this......

~*YOU*~

1.What time is it now? 00:59

2.What is your full name? Gwen Annick Alice Sallabank (White)

3.Single or taken? Taken and hidden away from the world

4.What does your name mean?

5.Who picked out your name? Parents

6.What's your nickname? I don’t really have one at the moment :s possibly bitch behind my back……

8.What colour are your eyes? They change on a daily basis: Blue/Grey/Green occasionally with brown bits…

9.Do you have an innie or an outie? Innie but then it goes a not outie….

10.What size are your shoes? 7ish

12.How tall (or short) are you? 5'7/8”ish

13.Honestly, what do you like about yourself? The fact that I can listen to people when they need to talk. And the fact tham im me now, not someone else’s idealisation of “me”…

14.What do you always get complimented on? The Hair

15.What is your worst quality? Oversensaitive, Paranoid, Skittish, Dreamer

What Happened to No. 16?

17.Do you think you're cute? I like to think I am, and I think I sometimes try to be a little too hard, but probably no

18.Hair colour? “Strawberry Blonde” going a lil redder atm…...

19.Do you wear contacts? No. but I want the ones that make you look like you only have HUGE pupils…

20.Living Arrangements? I try not to.
At home, but tend to avoid parents,occasionally crash at various friends’ houses / Andrews

~*FAVOURITES*~

21.Favourite Drink? 7up/ Dr. Pepper/ Hazelnut Steamers from AMT/ Strawberry Milkshakes from work/ Just Water/ the Hot Chocolate we had in Zagreb – it was litterally *just* Hot (ie melted) Chocolate….

22.Favourite alcoholic drink? Reef Orange or Blue ones or Cryptonite (Orange and Blue Reef together)

23.Favourite Month? May / August

24.Favourite Food? Many!; chocolate (obviously), Mum’s Tacos’, Flan, Tripple Layer Chocolate Fudge Cake, Pizza Hut Pizza, Caramel Slicefrom work – actually pretty much everything from work, the noodles from Sojo’s Mongolian Wok :D :D :D
25.Favourite Board Game? 221b Baker Street

26.Web Site? http://spaces.msn.com/members/chocoholicandcrazy/PersonalSpace.aspx?owner=1&js=yes , http://boymeetsboy.keenspot.com/ , http://www.megatokyo.com/ , http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/ddautta.php , http://antwrp.gsfc.nasa.gov/apod/image/0011/earthlights2_dmsp_big.jpg , http://www.sailchallengers.com/

27.Favourite Clothing Brand? I try to avoid the “big” names, I like stuff from Camden.

28.Favourite day of the Year? Tomorrow.

29.Favourite colour? Blue. Dark Bue.

30.Favourite Animal? Dlophins

~*FAMILY AND FRIENDS*~

31.Do you have more girl or boy friends? Notsure. I don’t think of my friends in terms of gender, I like to think of them as people 

32.Who's your best friends? I don’t really have best friends. My socail groups are grouped as such;
Close friends
General Friends (people you see, but not so offten as to make them close)
Work
Cadets
College
Family
People I randomly know (indifferent to)
People I don’t particually like, but tollerate
The Dead Ones (usually ones from the latter group that I stopped tollerating – but the are exceptions)
Obviously there is some crossover
Close friends include; Andrew (obviously), Abi, Pete, Phil, Scott, the Jennys (they be a single entitly now) Nicola.

33.Are your parents together? Yes, but not married.

34.How often do you get together with the family? I avoid it on general terms, grandparents; dad’s side: as little a possible; Mums: whenever possible; others: whenever the occasion arises.

35.Do you tell your parents or your friends more? Depends on what it is to be told, emotions tend to go to friends, stresses to parents and problems generallt to both, unless its about one of the parties…

36.Anything special about your parents? Not obviously to me; but that be because I kbow them; to others, possibly, just not sure what….

37.Siblings and their ages? None.

~*YES OR NO*~

38.You're a flirt? Yes

39.You're slutty? I try not to be

40. You Mean? Only to those about to be admitted to the last social category…

41.You like someone? I like many people

42.You can keep secrets? Yes

43.You dance in front of the mirror? Not infront of the mirror, windows occasionally.

44.You sing in the shower? no

46.You liked Britney Spears? Never. She is the devil spawn. She must be anialated before she reproduces…

47.You've liked a cousin? I cant stand my cousins – they’re Chavs….

48.You've been in the opposite sexes bathroom? not for long – it smelled

49.You've seriously hurt someone? not intentionally

50.You've been hurt seriously? In many, many ways…

51.You swear? Fuck yes.

52.You get your way? If I work for it.

53.You're willing to try new things? Depends on the thing

54.You've cheated on a test? Not that I recall….

~*RIGHT NOW*~

57.What are you wearing? What would you do if I said nothing? (green icky chav-like tracksuit bottoms, black nylon top – (it be my “I’m not going out anywhere – so I really cant be bothered look :P)

58.What colour are your pants? White with blue edging

59.What are you listening to? Marilyn Manson

60.How are you feeling? Slightly tired, but mainly in zombie status atm….

61.What are you doing? Mentally scoulding myself for sitting in this position for to long…. ::Ouch::

62.What are you eating? Mint Imperials

63.How many people are online? 7 – 4 of which be the stupid Mobile things

64.How's the weather? Dark, possibly cold.

65.What's on your mouse pad? I don’t have a mouse, and if I did, it certainly wouldn’t have a “pad”. Only losers like rats have “pads”

66.What books are you reading? Perdido Street Station, The Scar, Iron Council; all by China Meiville/

~*GIRLS ONLY*~

67.How many lip glosses do you have? Does lipsalve count? I have 3 if it does:s …..

68.What perfume do you use? Fragonard stuff from french excange or impulse O2 spray

69.What's in your purse? 72p, Virgin & HMV studend discount cards (both out of date), Student ID, Blockbuster Membership card, College library card, Photocopy card, Bus pass, E-top up card, Nectar card, Young persons’ Railcard, Natwest Solo Card, Natwest Switch/Maestro Card, random remains of recipts…

71. Tall or short boys? Just a little taller is nice

72.Blonde or brunette guys? Not bothered

74.Boxers showing? Not unless the trousers arent on…

75. Long hair or short hair on boys? Long!

76. What do you find annoying in a guy? Arrogance, Vanity, Overconfidence, Chav.

77.What's the first thing you notice about guys? The way they walk and hold themselves, then what part of me they look at first…

~*OTHER QUESTIONS*~

88.What was the last movie you saw? In cinema;Constantine, Ray on DVD, Ghost in the Shell

89.What did you have for dinner? Not quite mashed potatoes, undercooked beans, and char-grilled quiche (as in it was black….)

90.What are you hoping for? Happiness, Security within myself and others around me.

92.What movie do you really want to see? The Trench – random film I saw on sky about 3 years ago and have not since found any trace of :S 

93.Tell us about those scars? One on forehead from having door slamed into my head in yr.9, another from where the door rebounded…, one on left brest from having a lumpremoved when I was 16 and the docs botching the stiching, aprox 30 on right arm and about 65 on left arm from selfharming days, countless on knees, 3 on right elbow from fight, 1 on left little finger from swan attepting to eat me when I was 2, 2 at base of marrige ring finger; one from fight at school and another on top from the bike accedent, scars from my toes to my knees from being bitten by something in the sea in menorca, and a nice dent in my left shin from being kicked with steel-capped boots when 12. I wont even go into the mental scars…..

95.Where is your favourite place to travel? Menorca (out of season), Egypt, and I want ot go to Japan (supprised? :P)

96.What did you last dream about? Ordanary things in extraordanary circumstances

97.What was the last thing you ate? That mint imperial…..

98.If you were a crayon what colour what would you be? One of the ones that looks like it might be the right colour, but isn’t. or one of those glow in the dark ones that also don’t work…..

99.Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Mum, but Andrew before that…

100.Do you like the person that sent this to you? Well I stile it off Abi’s blog…, but yes 

101.Last movie you watched? See 88.

102.Ever had a crush on a teacher? Not that I can reliably recall

103.Are you too shy to ask someone out? Not if it isnt for me!

104.Scary movies or happy ending? So what cant scary movies have happy endings?

105.Summer or winter? Spring/ Autumn

106.Relationships or one night stands? Relationships.

107.Chocolate or Vanilla? Well, theres actually Vanilla in most chocolate….!

108.Do you want your friends to write back? If they have nothing better to do…

109.Who is most likely to respond? The one who responds…

110.Who is least likely to respond? The one who doesn’t respond…

111.What did you do last night? Bed, then my head…..

112.Anything else you want to add? I’ve signed up for the race for life – sponsor me here: http://www.raceforlife.org/raisingmoney/donate/

113.Time finishing? 02:37

2005-04-11T01:29:00.000+01:00

pete and ming in nott - so sweet :P Pete claims ming's hand looks evi, I'm inclined to agree.... :P

The Room

2005-04-11T00:50:00.000+01:00

So, on tues, rather than do work I cleaned and cleared my room
here be proof:

Halfway through and I have floor!

See, Floor!
And this is how:

the clothes that Were on the floor...

The pile reached to the heavens its self....

the floor - no wonder I couldn't remember what colour it was....
what colour is it? - comments please

And finally - to top it all off, parents bought a throw for the sofa; bear in mind the sofa its self is blue as are all the other chairs in the room...

hideous, isn't it?

Wheeee! Tests!

2005-04-09T01:29:00.000+01:00

You scored as Wrath.

Wrath

69%

Pride

63%

Sloth

56%

Gluttony

50%

Lust

38%

Envy

31%

Greed

25%

Seven deadly sins
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Mmmm.... Wrath.......

yay go me ^^

You scored as Labret Piercing. You probably intimidate a whole lot of people without really meaning too. If people could just get past the many tattoos, piercings, and sideburns I'm sure they'd love you. Or still be scared, who knows.

Dirty Piercings

90%

Labret Piercing

90%

Nipples

70%

Earlobe Piercing

70%

Belly Button Piercing

70%

Nose Piercing

60%

Lip Piercing

60%

Tongue Piercing

60%

Cartilage Piercing

50%

What Piercing Are You?
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But also a Dirrrty piercing :P
Hehe ^^

You scored as Disappear. Your death will be by disappearing, probably a camping trip gone wrong or an evening hike you never returned from.

Stabbed

60%

Disappear

60%

Gunshot

53%

Bomb

53%

Eaten

53%

Suicide

53%

Accident

53%

Posion

47%

Disease

47%

Natural Causes

33%

Drowning

33%

Suffocated

33%

Cut Throat

13%

How Will You Die??
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Well.... at least i won't have my Throat Cut... o.0

You scored as Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. Congratulations! You are obsessive-compulsive! You know nothing curbs images of mutilating your mother like a good counting/checking/washing ritual... wait, DID you forget to turn off the stove???

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

67%

Unipolar Depression

58%

Schizophrenia

42%

Antisocial Personality Disorder

42%

Borderline Personality Disorder

33%

Eating Disorders

33%

Which mental disorder do you have?
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...It's so true... :P

You scored as Japanese. You should learn Japanese! Either or you are Japanese or you wish you were. Well, you're not going to transform magically; the least you can do is learn the language!

Japanese

80%

French

67%

Spanish

67%

Chinese

60%

Arabic

47%

Latin

47%

English

40%

What language should you learn?
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YAY!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D ^^

My Dissetation is due in on 18th, i've barely started. need i say more?;

You scored as Teenager. You are the teenage procrastinator! Teenagers can partly blame their brain for procrastination. The prefrontal cortex, which sits back and takes the big picture into account, organizes and prioritizes, allocates time, weighs priorities and balances various considerations, is the last part of the brain to completely develop - it develops around around 20. On the other hand, the part of the brain responsible for intense emotional reactions is much more active in teenagers, so acting on impulse rather than planning and executing is more the order of the day.

Teenager

88%

ADD

81%

Dreamer

75%

Crisis-maker

69%

Perfectionist

69%

Worrier

63%

Overdoer

63%

Defier/rebel

50%

Not a procrastinator

31%

What type of procrastinator are you?
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well, whadduya know?

Pictures!

2005-04-06T02:11:00.000+01:00

So... I've finally worked out hello and picasa, originally with the plan to show y'all some of my "work", but I thought for now I'll just share a few random photos...
enjoy....

to prove *a point* ; Andrew being and looking like a fool....

And then trying to make up for the "momentary lapse of sensibility and freewill" by being boring and annoyingly sensible.............. Or not

Jenny (the evil one)

See.
Evil.

I then thought, it would be a lil evil not to warn her...
so, for your sake (Abi) and as a warning; my room: in it's natural state:

and yes this is it, I didn't accidentally wonder into the local dump, Andrew will vouch for this: this is the normal state of my room
no, wait, I tell a lie.

It's normally worse.....

WTF (rant time)

2005-04-06T01:08:00.000+01:00

So,
Saturday after work I met Phil(after a lil schedule change due to me forgetting we had stock take - no, not yay.), where we promptly went to Pizza Express, this I found amusing as I had been there on thurs with Andrew (thank you :)), where I had the Quattro Fromaggi pizza - i.e. 4 cheese - don’t know why they insist on Italian names, especially as they aint Italian... *insert mumbling here* so, did that then headed home , stopping off at the Co-op for "pigging out” supplies (:D), which we used promptly after we got back. Then I actually got him to watch the Bebop movie - which is an achievement cos he's stated that;

he hates animated things (not inc. shrek :P)
he hates subtitles
and he *dislikes* the Japanese - or at least the ones that come into his shop :P

So, yea, quite an achievement, AND he liked it (there is hope yet: P) we stayed up a lil longer, I had to show him pictures of Zagreb and Lju____: Slovenia (I cant spell it any more...)
Sun morning I had to get up to walk down to the bus with Phil, then headed back home, about 15v mins later got a call from Nic, and eventually *offered* to cover her lunches cos there were only 3 of them in, and you need At Least 4 to run the shop....Arrived at work about 12:30 and took Nic off, then was on café for the rest of the time, then, at some point during the time I was on café, SOME BASTARD STOLE THE TIPS BOWL!!!!!
I mean, WTF?!?!?!?!
WHO, ON THIS EARTH IS SO BLOODY SELFISH AND SMALL MINDED AS TO DO SOME THING SO UTTERLY DISRESPECTFUL AND DOWNRIGHT MEAN????
Honestly.
I started to count it on Saturday and there was£5 in there, before I even ran out of silvers’ (I count pounds first, then silvers…etc….), so NOT impressed - problem was there was only me on café, so when I was making drinks I’d have my back turned – so there was no real way I, or anyone else could have really prevent it – it’s just bastardish.
We called security but its unlikely anything will actually happen…just really waiting to see what Linda will say on sat…..

Interviews and mixing up towns.....

2005-03-10T01:28:00.000Z

so, today has been interview day (again)

spent best part o last nite writhing up my discriptions of all the peices in my portforlio..... so you can see how much work i ''havn't'' done, heres the full document:

Gwen SallabankArt and Design Foundation DiplomaAbingdon and Witney College

A little about me:
I spent the last two years studying a National Diploma in Public Services, with the precept of joining the Royal Navy. Approximately half way through the course I took the decision to change pathways back to Art and Design, to mainly give myself a challenge and to re-ignite my enthusiasm for the subject.

This Portfolio is entirely made up from works from the first two terms of the Art and Design Foundation Diploma Course.Where possible I have included the written briefs that correlate with the works I have also added my own comments on each of the pieces and written descriptions of the briefs where no written version was originally given.

All the pages are in order with the portfolio.

0,4
Two A1 sheets
This was a part illustration, part graphics brief; we were instructed to chose two digits and explore different ways of illustrating them together in a square format. The final square was photocopied four times and the squares arranged in a athestatic manner.

I chose the numbers 0 and 4 because I wanted to explore the contrast between the forms.

Tower of Biscuits
One A1 sheet

The basic brief was to balance a variety of biscuits on each other (a challenge in its self), and draw them from a low perspective to create a monolithic and monumental piece.
Brief attached.

‘Luxurious Surroundings’
One A1 sheet

This was a one-day painting project.
The life model was placed in a ‘luxurious’ setting with rich fabrics and props surrounding her and a red-head spotlight providing the main directional lighting. This made her skin appear extremely ‘milky’ and smooth in contrast to the bright and rich colours that surrounded her
The objective of the brief was to communicate the richness of the model’s surroundings and the contrasts between light and texture through paint and working back into the paint with pastels and other dry media.
This is one of two pieces I produced in the day.

Minimal Line life model drawing
Three A1 sheets

This was another one-day drawing project. The purpose of the drawing project was to use single flowing lines to represent entire forms and shapes within the figure
The first two sheets are of the model in three different positions, keeping only one part of the body in the same position (hips, then feet, respectively). It was a challenge to keep the proportions and perspective accurate throughout each pose and as a whole composition.

Monoprinting pt. 1
One A1 sheet

This is one of two mini-series I created in a one day printing introduction project. I particularly like this piece because of the ‘happy accident’ that occurred through the ink being absorbed by the stencil-mask I used for the centre print. The result, and ‘happy accident’ created through re-printing directly from the ink is on the left, with the stencil on the right.
Brief attached.
‘Towers and Totems’
One A1 sheet

Unfortunately, due to a college trip the previous week, this project was cut to a one day project.
The basic brief was to create a five-storey structure that reflected five main events or periods of time in our lives.
The sculpture is constructed from five cubes I made using colour photographs photocopied onto acetate and then laminated in cube nets. The cubes are all different and a few contain objects within them. They are suspended from one-another from the ceiling.
I made this piece extremely personal:
The first period (bottom level) concentrated on my birth and early life; I collected photographs from my birth and used them as a composite.
The second period (second level up) concentrates on my life between the ages of 12-15: when I started at my secondary school. During my time there I was bullied and excluded. The photos are of my ‘den’ that I would visit after school to be alone (-by choice – and to avoid others walking home) and to collect my feelings before returning home. The cube contains dead leaves from the trees that made up the ‘den’.
The third period (middle) focuses on my first ‘serious’ relationship: Tom. The relationship with Tom lasted eight months, for the last two of which he was (extremely) and repeatedly unfaithful. The cube comprises of photos of him and letters I wrote to him, but never delivered, describing my true feelings for him, before and after we separated. Inside the cube hangs a silver heart pendent he gave to me, proclaiming it to be ‘his heart’ and that it “belonged to me now”.
The forth level (second down) represents a very private part of my life. From approximately the age of 15 I have self – harmed through cutting the tops of my arms. I have only really stopped within the last year. I used Spray-Mount to create the ‘frosted’ effect of the plastic and hung razor blades inside the cube. The blood is my own, sealed with the Spray-Mount.
The last level (top) represents my life now (or at least as it was when the sculpture was made, last October).is comprises of photos of my friends: my ‘family’ who I care about the most and who I know care about me. It hopefully represents my future as time of happiness.
Brief attached.

Mapping the Body: All her Scars (Physical and Psychological)
Two photos mounted on A3

These two sculptures are from our first self-directed project.The title of the brief was ‘Mapping the Body’; I chose to base my project on mapping the body thorough scars. I created two ‘bodies’ using Barbie dolls and mod-roc and then cut into them to represent the scars of the body: – my body; all my physical scars and secondly, all the psychological scars, for example; a hole where the heart should be, representing too many broken hearts.

Mark Making
One A1 sheet

This was a two day project where we explored processes of making marks to represent an object. One of the methods I used was burning carpet to create the pieces shown. I sprayed the basic form of the object onto the carpet with flammable aerosol (hairspray) before igniting the liquid spray and allowing the carpet to burn till the desired effect was accomplished.

Egg Box
Photograph mounted on A3

The brief was to redesign the basic egg box. We had to use recyclable materials and consider athestetics as part of the design. For this I researched the history of the egg box and packaging, with particular attention to traditional Japanese paper packaging.
Brief attached.
Bamboo
One A1 sheet

Another drawing exercise; we constructed an installation of bamboo caned in a large lattice and hung it from the ceiling.We experimented using black and white media and drawing techniques to show the space occupied by the bamboo.

Shoyu
One A1 sheet

This was a purely design brief. We were to design any component of the identity for a new Japanese restaurant. I chose to concentrate on the company logo, the uniform of staff and the chopstick logo design. This project particularly interested me as I have a great interest in the Japanese culture.
Brief attached.

Metamorphosis
One A1 sheet

This was the first illustration brief we received. The project was three weeks long; in the first week we made a series of studies of beetles and insects in the Natural History Museum in Oxford, the following weeks were dedicated to conception and production of the images.
Brief attached.

The Economist: WMD: Fact or Fiction?
One A1 sheet

This was a one day project. We were given a brief outline of the nature of The Economist magazine. We were then given headline “WMD: Fact or Fiction?” to which we had too produce two outcomes. The Economist logo and Barcode were provided.My images were based around two ideas: the “Red Herrings” issue of the actual WMDs and the ‘coalitions’ of Blair and Bush, and of Saddam and Osma Bin Laden.

Business Cards : Personal Representation
One A1 sheet

This was a graphics brief where we were to use what ever images we chose to create “calling cards” for ourselves. To only compulsory points of the brief was that we had to produce at least four different responses and there had to be at least two ‘layers’ of images within the image.

Monoprinting pt.2
Two A1 sheets

The second Mini Series made on the monoprinting day – the ‘Angel’ series – I used the stencil-mask effect to great effect in these images.
See Monoprinting pt. 1 for Brief.

Greenpeace posters
Two A1 sheets

We were given three of Greenpeace’s main focuses to choose from to illustrate four different responses in a poster format.
In the latest lesson we converted one of our images in to a silkscreen print.
Briefs attached.

Process as Painting: Cards
Three A1 sheets, three loose pieces and one A1 Process sheet.

This was essentially a painting project, except we were banned from using paintbrushes! Instead we experimented using dripping, smearing, splashing and hand painting. The brief was to abstract a playing card through all these process.My card was the King of Hearts. I was also given a Seven of Clubs, which I also used.
I enjoyed using the paints in different ways and getting (very, very) messy!
Brief Attached.

Declomania: The Butterfly Effect
Two photographs mounted on A2

This was a project mainly instigated as an introduction to darkroom processes. The images were made by folding small pieces of acetate in half and spreading out gouash , then re-opening the acetate. The acetate was dried and then used in an enlarger a photographic negative.Brief attached.

Wallpaper
One A1 sheet

We created an installation in one of the studios by hanging wallpaper in strips from the ceiling. We then had a life model stand and sit within the installation and we painted her in first using a ‘painterly’ style then using outline to create a ‘graphic look’. This piece is one of four pieces I created on the day. When we painted this particular pose the only part of the model I could see was her knee!
Brief attached

“Written on the Body”
Four A1 sheets and loose final Book cover (Jackets)

This is from the second self directed project. We were given choices of basic briefs according to our specialisation, and we had to work from a created installation (clothes hung from the ceiling with text projected onto them – see photos on first worksheet). The Illustration brief was to design a contemporary cover for the book “Written on the Body” by Jeanette Winterson. I researched the details of the book online and worked from a few found quotes. The image is from where I (literally) wrote on the body and took photographs, which I later manipulated in Photoshop.I enjoyed being able to work on my own ideas independently and have a final and finished product (the book dust jackets) at the end of the project.

“The Book project”
Photographs mounted on A2

In this short one day project we destroyed books in order to create new sculptural forms! I cut up the pages of two old children’s books and made (41) origami triangles and attached them to paper ‘springs’ to bring in the third dimension. I then re-attached the sprung triangles to one of the remaining book covers.Brief attached.

‘Message in a Bottle’ Photogram
Photogram mounted on A3

Using an ornate Glass bottle and Strips of ‘curled’ acetate I created the photogram by placing the objects onto photographic paper and exposing the paper. The light reflected within the glass created quite intriguing patterns.

“Alter Ego”
Three photographs mounted on A2

‘A little something to remember me by….’The project was to introduce us to lighting techniques and developing from negatives in the darkroom.
We were encouraged to come in as our ‘Alter Ego’ for the entire day – which I did. After much deliberation I chose to attend as a Japanese High School girl to reflect my passion for the Japanese culture and Japanese Manga and Anime.

so, got up at stupid o'clock today and got train to portsmouth.....
[i hate trains]
got to portsmouth and spent 15 mins gettin lost in the "University Quater", eventually foung the right building (no blody signposts o' course). got there, the builging and studios werent great, and the guy was pretty dismissive aout everything, so im not so keen on portsmouth now....

got train to Southampton and in a fit of lazyness got a taxi to the institute 30 mins early, there were nearly 20 of us for interview! crazy..... *mutter*
so, when the bloke (eventually) arrived, we all left portfolios in one studio while we got a 90 min tour. then returned, collected portfolio (mine's COMPLETLY out of order - poss a good thing). was interesting that they didnt talk to us even a lil.... still, thay have bloody good facilities - almost as good as kent....

so, new plan for route B :
fuck portsmouth and plymouth: they both be shit, my options are now:
1st: Kent - Illustration
2nd: Leeds - Visual Communications
3rd: Herefordshire - Illustration

so... yea.... :P

hopeing to get into so'ton now tho.....

got home, collapsed, sorted out portfoilio then have been online trying to mediate between smo and andrew....
think its all a lil harsh sometimes - ::remembers school life [:'( ] ::

anyways... holy shit its my birthday tomoro........ :P ;)

Raising hopes ?

2005-03-04T00:29:00.000Z

raising hopes every time the link is clicked, and dashing them seconds later with the same paragraph or text appearing as has done every other time for the last 2 months

- as Abi so delightfully put it ;)

so, ok, I know.........

but for the sake of sanity (and my memory not being what it was [ I AM 19 next week.....] ) I will defiantly attempt to ignore the many *interesting* things that have ahappened to me in the last 2 (?!?) months....

A few essential points to keep any reader's (I have readers?? Why are you reading this????) mind in vague working condition though;

had various interviews:

One of these being at Swansea
basic points of Swansea interview:

got lost trying to find the damn place;

walked OFF my map of Swansea town centre

found campus at top of VERY steep and BIG hill (guess that's why they called it a Mount....)

got to reception (nice of put it up MORE stairs...), got told I had to go further up the MOUNTAIN, and then in the FOURTH FLOOR - thank fuck for lifts

had interview

got place :D ;)
[its condtional on that I get a pass - so in other words - I gotta place :P ]

Had another interview at surrey

didn't get Sooooo lost.... - no hill either :D

From start wasn't too impressed - they didn't even give a tour! - we (there were 15 of us (!?!)) were herded into a room, told to leave out portfolios and told to bugger off for half an hour!

then had a shoddy interview - didn't care about my work or me; all they wanted to hear that they were the best and I wanted to go to them - which I don't.

they've offered me a place - but I don't want it (guess I should tell them really.....)

Went on the college trip thing to Zagreb and Ljubjiana (I think that's the spelling :s) - so... YAY LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS OF SNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - it was knee deep out of the city and atleast 3" in the city - Andrew kept walkin across flower beds cos he didn't realize they were there ^^
the whole trip was quite fun, but eh fact it was only 7 days and 3 of them were traveling - kinda killed it.

favorite bits:

The cable car ride across the mountains - I was suddenly infactuated with trees and snow - I took over 100 photos!

Ljubjiana in general - it was just cleaner, nicer and sunnier than icky urban Zageb

The pasta we had for lunch - it was so good I has two bowls! (I dint have any breakfast)

The concert on the last nite - I doth now believeth that all live music is amazing (note : all forms of townie "music" (ie pop, r&b, rap etc....) cannot be live - it has NO REAL INSTRUMENTS!)

The plane jouneys - clouds are so beautiful sometimes - especially when from above (they were rain clouds after all ;) :P )

so, then had a wholy uneventful half term, followed but the last few weeks of uneventful college work

went to see Kent (KIAD) last week me to Maidstone campus and andrej to Rochester - we traveled as far a london together.

then it was Pete's birthday thing !

at this point i believe its it better for ppl to read Abi's blog for details of the nite and funny pics (here: http://sp00ngirl.blogspot.com/2005/02/story-behind-photos-petes-birthday.html and: http://sp00ngirl.blogspot.com/2005/02/pictures-from-petes-birthday-bash.html) but highlights were:

Food! (at last i got some lunch!)

Me asking Smo when he last got laid and him taking nearly a quater of a hour to answer before i pointed out that drunken one nighter's don't count

Andrew's attempts at dancing and Pete's dancing in general

The RANDOM guy that tried hitting on me first then Abi THROUGH REALLY CREEPY DANCING - i mean it - worse than Andrew's!

The Pool and the aftermath (i won both ;) :D )

Smo's "Gay Chicken" - where he was too drunk to stop and Andrew was too shocked to realise in time

Pete's Face in reaction to it all

Andew flipping Smo off'f him and onto another chair in response (eventually) and skewering smo on said chair

Smo attempting to chat up Sarah (to Pete's dismay and worry - dont worry She's got ALOT more sense than THAT)

My selotaping of Smo's attempt at chest hair and his resulting agony (see here: http://photos1.blogger.com/img/115/1056/640/IMG_3045.jpg)

walking through a desserted oxford at 5 am and it snowing

sleeping through Paul's lecture

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so im not sure what else TO say.....

got lost in exeter today - then VERY bored on trains, panicking about route B.......

HAPPY NOW ABI??????????????

^^ ;) ^^

Ermm ?

2005-01-03T01:11:00.000Z

so...
yeh

whats happened?

well andrew stayed fro a few days, i learnt lots o photoshop thingies, and it was quite fun watching him go through it going "What!? you dont have that???", then finding it somewhere else and going "why's it there?!?"or"why'd they call it that?!?" - in the end he just turned around and said - "so - its basicly photoshop, just dumbed down alot......"
quite funny......
spent all day playing on it.. litrally -.-
it got to 11.55 before I gave up and 'celebrated' new years' thingy.... watched the fire works thing in london on TV - so pretty - think im gonna have to go next year :)
lil pissed tehat i didnt do anything amazing for new years' - but i did get to work

so - working on NEW YEARS DAY [grrrr]
whats the point??
we had no one in - teh target was kinda funny - £200 - we did about £500 in teh end - nearly all on cafe - and no supprise - thats where i was nearly all day ::typical::
not that it was busy - the hardest part was trying to look busy incase we got anyone important in :s

did abolutly nothing yesterday

did a little less today - i woke up at about 3.15 PM - quite funny :P, got up at about half past (it takes me about 15 mins to wake up properly :P), attempted to do some work, gave up, made myself some breakfast (Oatcake), watched TV till about 6, and then came online till... now. did some wok - in that i now have 19 pages of random facts about the origins of Christmas (yay?), then talked to people - kicked andrew's ass at solitare, minesweeper and Tic-Tac-Toe ^^

going to bed soon
have asked andrew to call me to try to wake me at a decent hour so i can pannick about the college stuff more and at an earlir hour :)

going back to college on 5th

hopefuly things wll pick up then :)

till then...................

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2004-12-29T01:59:00.000Z

so much for that idea.........
oh well

fuck it........

so now this 'works'........

2004-12-28T23:59:00.000Z

yay it works AND i have comments
thank you! ^^
so, andrew be over tomoro :)
seeing House Of The Flying Daggers :D
looks good, hope its as good as it seems: its done by the same people as Crouching Tiger, Hiden Dragon [CTHD], so it should be good ^^

so am going to attempt a decent sleep time tonite, unlike this morning (4 am I got to sleep :)
mumble mumble....

so yay
keep the comments! ^^

Latte Day..........

2004-12-28T19:50:00.000Z

If i have to say "do you want cream on that?" one more time today.......................... *glowers* ::bloody work, bloody customers, bloody RUSSIAN accent, whats with that??!?!::
Arg... :(
dont ask.....
so, half way through making the 20th odd latte i decided to start the blog thing........ [thats the thing withe me... i do cafe on auto pilot..... kinda funny really............]
so now, after 7 hours at work (trust me it seems longer when you're there), im attempting a blog
the title should have warned you btw............

so lets see if this works................ :s