Mainly for my own resourse =P

First name Last name Kanji translation & Japanese gifts

Feeling...

...
isolated...
cold...
numb...
alone...

... empty



but hey,

i'll be alright
i'm always alright...






right?

29%

So.
I'm Back


where to start?

well i suppose i should start with news


Andrew and I are nolonger together.
i'm not gonna get tinto details, those who know me, an who needed to know, know the reasoning and the whys.
I...
well one way its been put is that i seem to have fallen out of love.

that numbing of the sences, i still care for him, by no means do i hate him, like i do some previous boyfriends, i just simply didnt feel like being with him in the context of a lover was right
and for both our best interests, i finnished, a week to late albeit, but i couldn't drag him further, the hurt wouldhave been much more, i can just say that i hope he'll oneday understand that if i had carried on, fake, it would have hurt him even more, i didnt want to hurt him even as much as i already have.


I regret the meathod; telephone, next to the internet is possibly one of the most evil inventions for a couple to have to use, especially in a longdistance relationship.
so, i'm sorry for the hurt, and im sorry for the somewhat difficult position ive put our mutual friends in.

but thats as far as it goes.


aside from the break up (or down?) im actually doing really quite well :)

ive been back in Swansea for over a month now, this has made me happy, classes only started last week, so ive mainly been seeing friends, going out, and making new friends.
im in a REAL house now, living with 3 most excellent people, and enjying my time with them too, getting this house to a home, seeing as now i feel that swansea is definatly more of a home than oxford is, or ever was...

a house post will (eventually) follow, once ive got my damned camera to work again, and tidied my room (im still unpacking XD)...

so yes, apologies, no Great Japan Post yet, still, but it's in the making :)

Ooo yes - great happiness - for those who know, ive been addicted to DeviantArt for a while, and one of my favorite artists is a guy called Budgie, and look! he's sold one of his originals; a beautiful piece.
guess who too?
woo :D
happt happy happy joyness
im so happy, and for me its such an honour to own someone elses piece of art.
weird you may say, as i'm an artist too, but what can i say? his work IS awsome...

so yes, deviantart, where i spend atleast half of my brousing hours (we have WiFi, so why the hell not?? :P)

a little more sad, i have a Myspace now too; here but hey, its quite fun, and how the majority of my friends were keeping intouch over the summer...
(add me if you're bored enough to have one too)
what can i say? ^^;


last but not least (for now)
something i found on one of my random internet trawlings;

Start with 100%, and take away 1% for everything you've done/that's happened to you on this list.

Smoked.
Drank alcohol.
Cried when someone died.
Been drunk.
Had sex.
Been to a concert.
Given a handjob/gotten a handjob.
Given a blowjob/gotten a blowjob.
Been verbally sexually harassed.
Verbally sexually harassed somebody.
Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
Been to prom.
Cried at school.
Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
Went streaking.
Given a lap dance.
Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.
Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
Kissed a stranger.
Hugged a stranger.
Went scuba diving.
Driven a car.
Gotten an xray.
Hit by a car.
Had a party.
Done drugs.
Played strip poker.
Got paid to strip for someone.
Ran away from home.
Broken a bone.
Eaten sushi.
Bought porn.
Watched porn.
Made porn.
Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
Been in love.
Frenched kissed.
Laughed so hard you cried.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Laughed yourself to sleep.
Stabbed yourself.
Shot a gun.
Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
Watched an animal die.
Watched a person die.
Had sex and/or messed around somewhere with atleast 1 person present.
Pranked somebody.
Put somebody in the hospital.
Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
Kissed somebody of the same sex.
Dressed punk.
Dressed goth.
Dressed preppy.
Been to a motocross race.
Avoided somebody.
Been stalked.
Stalked someone.
Met a celebrity.
Played an instrument.
Ridden a horse.
Cut yourself.
Bungee jumped.
Ding dong ditched somebody.
Been to a wild party.
Got caught stealing something.
Kicked a guy in the balls.
Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
Went out with your friend's crush.
Got arrested.
Been pregnant.
Babysat.
Been to another country.
Started your house on fire.
Had an encounter with a ghost.
Donated your hair to cancer patients.
Been asked out by someone that you never though you'd to be asked out by.
Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months.
Sat on your ass all day.
Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
Had a job.
Gotten cut from a sports team.
Been called a whore.
Danced like a whore.
Been mistaken for a celebrity.
Been in a car accident.
Been told you have beautiful eyes.
Been told you have beautiful hair.
Raped somebody/ been raped.
Danced in the rain.
Been rejected.
Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
Punched someone/slapped someone in the face

my percent is the Title of this post, incase you were wondering ;)

so, do tell, what are you?